Wednesday...(where's Friday)

So I'm sure you remember I was miserable last week Wednesday because it wasn't payday, well guess what....I'm still miserable because I didn't have enough money in my paycheck to cover all bills this week. So I'm left trying to figure out the schematics of survival for the next two weeks. Have to cut out things that just aren't that important. So half of car note paid, no insurance paid this month, lights paid (rent and lights are a must), credit card paid, other credit card paid, kids daycare, afterschool activities paid, mary kay order paid (forgot about that)...that leaves, remaining car note, insurance, cable, gas for two weeks, oh yeah food!, transportaion is gonna have to be slim this week because I mean really, we are so on a budget. I wonder where my check from NYS is? They said it would be a fe weeks, but this is ridiculous. Of course I'm only stressing over that check because I need it (who doesn't need extra funds), but didn't care about it at all for the past year they were supposed to send it.

I'm venting now about the system we call public assistance. Explain to me how is it possible that somone (me!) who has 3 three children (growing ones) does not qualify for food stamps anymore? I don't make enough money to cover my bills each month, even though some of those bills are not necessity, lights, car, insurance and daycare are...I need to apply again and pray really hard for a positive solution because not being able to feed your own family is not what I should be worrying about each payday. ARRGGHHH!!!!!

I need a new moment in time, just put a pause on this one so that I can correct a few mistakes and make this journey a little easier from here on out. Or maybe a trip into the future so I can avoid those mistakes altogether. aah well....that won't happen so I'll just move on to another emotion....

Boredom, I want to go home! I miss my bed and I know its calling out for me as well. So hard to admit that the highlight of my day is watching my kids practice their dance stuff and me laying in my bed. Alone. Half clothed. Stretched out. Alone. Alone is not that bad actually, I'm sure it came across as sad, but I like stretching my legs over to the cold side of the bed and jumping back over to the warm side. I love rolling over to the cold side and flipping a random pillow over (I have 6 currently). I can't wait to start my project, I've printed the pattern and have the needles, yarn and desire...Now all I need is time, between my Sims and my projects I don't know how I will get anything accompished. Its about that time people, 4pm is coming and I'm running reports so that I can hit the door running in 1 hour...count it down with me.