Its Thursday

Good morning world! I have mixed feelings about what to do with myself these days. No not another self help proclamation, just a change for me. I've decided to go and get my hair braided, but what type of braids. For my women of color you understand the dilemma, for my fair skinned beauties I can braid, twist, weave, loc, get lace front maybe, nah that's to pricey and i don't wanna do my hair. I can do straight, semi curly or curly all the way. I always have braided in box braids, small ones...I'm thinking change, maybe cornrows, or invisible braids...oh wait..a color would be shocking to my system. Maybe I should go for a nice copper brown and twists? Nah, the roots would show black and I hate that look. I could color my own hair and see how I like that and then twist....sigh.... decisions decisions.

I remember when I was in beauty school way back in 97 I wanted to be a hair braiding queen. I was for a while too, I loved to braid back then. It was relaxing, I was able to lose myself in thought for 8 hours and people just thought I was really focused. Braiding comes naturally to me, I'm glad it does too...did I mention I have three daughters? All of whom are tender headed divas! Braids have saved their life and mine. I wonder if I should put myself back out on the hair scene and start doing hair again for money? There was a reason I gave that up, the stress of pleasing people was just to much to handle back then. I don't know if I've grown enough to say that I can just deal with it now. I mean it wouldn't be my bread and butter, but a hobby shouldn't stress you out, its supposed to be relaxing.

When I have to do my kids hair I feelings of nostalgia kick in because I really did love to do hair, then I stopped for a few reasons, lack of enough money, Chris being a weed smoker I felt overly conscience of how the house smelled to people. I just became  unhappy with everything. I wanted to make him a happier person so he would change and be a better parent, lover, friend to me. But it never happened. Anyway, I'm just saying...I need to do something drastic to my hair, I've been near bald already and color is expensive when its so short. So braiding and putting on a new aura might help. I wish I could just create an alter ego...I mean Beyonce has Sasha Fierce; why can't I become Divinity or Chocolate Thunder (sounds like a stripper right?....) Well maybe I can, just put on a new face, new clothes, new attitude, do things differently. I'll be a creature of the unexpected and actually DO something completely unexpected.